To be quite honest, the quote that inspired this post came out of a conversation about Jungian Personality Theory and how Jung differed from Freud. (Yes, I have INSANELY SMART FRIENDS).
“Freud just needed some good dick and a few spankings.” – One of my closest friends.
On top of the joy that quote brought me, it also got me thinking about what exactly has happened in my life over the past few months to get me where I am today. Yeah, you could say that, upon retrospectively viewing the past 9 months (or so) of my life, there’s been a pretty seismic shift in my outlook on the world, general mood, and even my writing (all of which have been trending steadily upwards). Obviously, there are about a million and three different things in my life now when compared to back then. A great majority are good things and I’m incredibly happy where I am and where I’m going. But sometimes it’s what our Souls need that really stands out among all the changes. And unlike Freud, I’m quite alright without the spankings…
The other “inspiration” for this post is that I am supposed to write a piece about my experience at a Soccer game I went to recently (as I missed class for it). It was fun. The USA won. I had a great time. <—– There. See, I also had this epiphany during the trip that is actually more interesting than just writing about my time at the game. There I was, sitting on the porch of the Dubliner Bar in the Power and Lights district of Kansas City. The air was just a tad crisp and I was nice and buzzed, sitting among new found friends and thinking about where all my life has gone these past few months. I couldn’t help but smile at the simple realization that in everything that changed, my Soul needed Soccer.
To say that it was just “Soccer” that I needed would be a falsehood. I needed what Soccer means to me. Something to enjoy, be passionate about, connect with people through, support, and feel pride in… all existing in an external and interactive environment (whereas writing and creating is often an internal world). I wore my Celtic jersey downtown one night and was greeted by a resounding “Hail! Hail!” from a handful of people. I’ve gotten thumbs up from Sounders fans when I wear my ECS scarf on game days. Hell, sitting at the Dubliner, I was chilling with a Cyclone/Timbers fan and having a grand old time (despite the rivalries). Celebrating the 3-1 Victory for the USMNT (and subsequent advancement to the final stretch of qualification for the 2014 World Cup), it sort of congealed for me that this was the whole community I’d been missing.
I could have found all of those qualities in other environments and through other means but, for whatever reason, it was Soccer or nothing for me. I had latched onto stories of healing and redemption and even developed a new role model through following his history of injury and his brilliance on the field (Stuart Holden). Soccer had become the new “home” for a slightly displaced and drifting part of my psyche. It literally feels like I have a “room” to watch games in, a “room” to interact in, and even a yard to play in (I make it a point to get out on the field at least every other day).
The best part about all of this – the “kicker” if you MUST (that one pained me to write) – is that I’m to the point where I can’t imagine life without soccer. I can’t imagine not looking forward to a game. I can’t really seem to remember what it was like before I met “She Who is Legend and Hangs Out With Lalas,” or “Hey, We’re Both Named Justin. Eternal Blue! Forever Green!” I really can’t remember not being excited about a game, reading blogs, listening to podcasts, breaking down formations, or waking up at 6am to watch Celtic play. It’s become a pivotal part of my life and I’m ever thankful for the experience.
So THAT is what the USMNT game was like for me. It wasn’t just a win. It was one hell of a metaphoric house-warming party and I couldn’t be happier.
Also, I got to hang out with Hercules Gomez (one of the starting strikers for the National Team). He’s an awesome dude who, in another life, I feel as if I’d be best friends with on account of his eloquent sarcasm and charm. Here’s your proof.
So soccer. Pretty freaking sweet.
‘Til next time…
See ya, Space Cowboys.
(For rooting interests, I support the USMNT/WNT, Celtic FC, the Bolton Wanderers, and the Seattle Sounders).